Advent

Is this how it is supposed to feel?

Darkness increasing and the frost that sticks.
Lights rising from window to window, stars of red and white, Christmas tunes.

Of Ben & Jerry’s and food experiments,
long walks and thoughts of presents

Pumpkin, candles in the dark,
a duvet covering whispers

Red and green nail polish
small bottles crashing on a pavement full of water

Innocence
Anger
Mixed feelings
Chocolate

Is this how it is supposed to feel?

To never get enough and stop waiting for something
in a time of advent when everyone is longing for a change

To never get enough, to feel complete when incomplete
and incomplete when complete

To not be able to write it understand it speak it shout it feel it

Love