Is this how it is supposed to feel?
Darkness increasing and the frost that sticks.
Lights rising from window to window, stars of red and white, Christmas tunes.
Of Ben & Jerry’s and food experiments,
long walks and thoughts of presents
Pumpkin, candles in the dark,
a duvet covering whispers
Red and green nail polish
small bottles crashing on a pavement full of water
Innocence
Anger
Mixed feelings
Chocolate
Is this how it is supposed to feel?
To never get enough and stop waiting for something
in a time of advent when everyone is longing for a change
To never get enough, to feel complete when incomplete
and incomplete when complete
To not be able to write it understand it speak it shout it feel it
Love